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Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
7:38 pm	i know ive only had 4 days of class. but all im thinking is this is lame lame lame. i know i need to get over the fact that i still gotta go to school. and i know i need to change my attitude and be more positive about this school year and everything. knowing and realizing these things doesnt mean shit. bottom line is i have a bad attitude that i still cant seem to shake. (Comment on this)
Monday, September 4th, 2006
1:00 pm	school has started again ive had 4 of my 6 classes so far. and i think its just me that doesnt get excited. i dont look foward to this year. i want it to be over and its barely even started. whats wrong with me? why cant i get through school like everyone else...i can hardly tolerate being here. im already miserable. i know i do it to myself but thats hard to stop. it sucks being stuck here after the amazinggggggggg summer i had. no one here gives a shit about me. and that hurts cuz at home everyone fucking loves me. fuck. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: chick magnet - mxpx (Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
10:50 am	i guess its been awhile... well. im gone on saturday. im completely done thurs afternoon. so much work to do before then. then its shopping hahaha. home saturday and out with meg and michelle of course. this summer will be kick ass. i still cant find a job. but everything will work out. it has to. it will. omfg i cant wait till camping...may 29th cant come soon enough! im out...studio time. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 24th, 2006
3:44 pm	word DiFFERENT EMOTiONS SURVEY *Anger Section* 1. What do you do when you're mad? scream, throw things, cry, kick things, swear like its my job. yeah i know im a mess oh well 2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? took it out on people that didnt deserve it, said some pretty shitty things out of anger, bloody knuckles from punching a wall... 3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yeah. didnt mean to tho 4. ever physically hurt someone when you were mad? dont think so. ok yeah, fist fights count, so a few times. but they started it so its their fault 5. do you curse when you're mad? of course *Crying Section* 1. when was the last time you really cried your heart out? monday before class. i broke and couldnt hold anything in 2. ever cried yourself to sleep? yeah 3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yeah, i got the best friends ever 4. do you cry when you get an injury? if the pain is so rediculously bad 5. do certain songs make you cry? siberia. ugh, fuck that song *Pain Section* 1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else? broke their heart? not sure if ive done anything worse... 2. how depressed can you get? i can get really depressed *Happy Section* 1. are you normally a happy person? yeah but not lately 2. what can make you happy? my best friends is all these days 3. do you wish you were happier? at this point yes 4. what about being with your friends makes you Happy? they are the only thing that keeps me going these days so id say everything *Love Section* 1. have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them? no. sorry but i cant put someones life over my life. its lame. because if you love them and you die instead of them, theyll be depressed and their life will suck. so did it really help? no! 2. did you ever love a person, and tell him/her that you love him/her? yeah 3.have you loved someone so much, it made you cry? yeah 4.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you? yeah *Hate Section* 1. who do you actually hate? lets not go there 2. ever made a hate list? no 3. have you ever been on a hate list? im sure i have. but whatever 4.have you ever hated any one that broke your heart? yeah, its turned to hate 5. do you hate George Bush? i sure as hell dont like him 6. do you hate Clinton? bill clinton rocks haha i gotta read his book *Self-Image Section* 1. is your self-esteem low? not usually but its not super high 2.do you believe in yourself? sometimes. these days no 3.when people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you deny you are? no, thats stupid. im pretty so why deny it lol 4. are you one of those people that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat? everyone feels that way at some point. this question is lame 5. ever wanted to kill yourself cause you thought you weren't good enough? eh who hasnt at some point 6.are you happy with who you are? not these days. im a mess lately. im so needy these days, im emotionaly unstable, and have a lame crush and i hate that ugh Current Music: tv...tyra show (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
6:26 pm	whatever it takes... what do i do if i cant handle this? i cant believe this. fuck. meg is coming here this weekend! i would die if she wasnt coming. i hate being away from her. and things arent so good for me right now. i need her. like now. sometimes i wonder how i would get through life without her... and bianca. i havent seen her in a month. and itll be another before i do. thats 2 months. how the fuck do you make it 2 months without your best friend? we talked forever and ever friday night. but thats not enough. shit happened over break and i saw her twice. that blows. it couldnt be helped but it hurts. i feel useless without her sometimes. no one else knows me like she does. talking to her several times a week doesnt do it. i mean, life sucks without your best friend around :( things are just tough right now and i wish she lived here...or that i lived in ct. im tired. complaining is annoying so sorry whoever reads this shit. im outttttttt. Current Mood: ughhhhhhh Current Music: tv shit is on (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
6:08 pm	in their eyes she's perfect and she's everything i could never be. how did i get myself into this mess? how did it get to this point where im the one left without a choice? i never know what to do. now here we are. ughh. oh well (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
3:55 pm	i need to do something worthwhile or ill scream. (Comment on this)
1:50 pm	going to the chappel and were gunna get married <3 1]. Name one person who is on your mind right now meg cuz she told me shes def visiting me feb 10th in philly!! and im excited to the max yo! [2]. Do you think your life has been good so far? yeah [3]. Where is the last place you went? returned to my apartment. but the place before that was letto deli to pick up lunch [4]. Who is the last person you called? my mom [5]. Who is the last person you texted? prolly meg a few days ago [6]. What's the name of your first love? not sure what was love and what wasnt lol [7]. Do you still talk to him/her/see? i talk to them all unfortunately but only once in awhile [8]. What's the longest relationship you've ever been in? like 4 months cuz i never stick it out hahaha im always like peace out before i get hurt [9]. Why did it end? i got scared and ended it [11]. Been cheated on? i hope not [12]. Have you ever thought that you were in love? still not sure [13]. Ever been caught having sex? no lol [14]. Have you ever slept with someone on the first date? nope im no slut [15]. What is your favorite body type to cuddle with? doesnt matter as long as i like them [16]. Do you look like your mom or dad? more like my mom [17]. Do you have siblings? older brother [18]. Do you smile often? no. i dont always smile when im happy...im weird like that [19]. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? yup [20]. Could you be a vegetarian? i wouldnt want to be [21]. Are you sentimental? yes [22]. If you had to get married tomorrow, who would you marry? no one. i have no crush or anything on anyone [23]. Groomsmen? what? im not getting married anytime soon lol [24]. Who would you want to catch the bouquet? whoever the hell wanted to [25]. Do you know anyone who wants to marry you? im too young to get married. but im sure there will be someone that wants to marry me [26]. Ever thought someone was "the one? i thought so but i now know i was wrong [27]. What do you think your wedding song will be? i have a list of 10 billion...ask beth hahaha. actually i have no idea, i dont think about that kinda stuff [28]. What is your middle name? not sayin lol [29]. Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity): lets see i have creativity already, and i guess beauty to some extent, so i choose love [30]. Do you wish on stars? only on shooting ones. i know it wont come true but its awesome to see shooting stars so wishing on one is just cute [31]. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? no thats crazy talk [32]. What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten? omg im kinda picky so theres lots hahaha [33]. Would you kill someone? only if someone killed my family or best friends...in that case its on and you better run you fucker, the police cant help you now! lol...but seriously... [34]. When did you last cry? alot this past week cuz im so freaked out about whether or not my mom is gunna be ok [35]. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play you? not sure. someone awesome! [36]. Have you ever met anyone famous? no. but bianca has met like everyone! [37]. Do you like your handwriting? yeah, its pretty and so like me. and allie complimented it in class today lol [38]. Who are you jealous of? usually im not a jealous person but sometimes one of my best friends. but its not like the omg i hate you jealousy. ill be jealous for like 2 seconds then im happy for them [39]. What is your favorite lunchmeat? grosssssssssss [40]. Do you have any bad habits? a few lol [41]. Are you a friendly person? not really. i try to be but it just doesnt happen [42]. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? yea [43]. Do looks matter? to some extent but not much Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? A: i had a doggie and a prairie dog but they died :( Q: MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED? A: rebel without a cause <3 oh james dean!!! Q: NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES? A: phone, keys, money Q: WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS? A: bright-ass pink Q: HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW? A: a lil over a hundred dollas lol Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT? A: sleeping after 9 hours of class Q: WHATS YOUR FAVORITE PART OF THE CHICKEN? A: you just wanna hear me say breast! Q: WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TOWN/CITY? A: philly, new haven Q: I CAN'T WAIT TO? A: pee....ive been holding it for awhile lol Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR DAD? A: last saturday when him and billy brought me back to school Q: Are you on myspace? Who got you to join myspace? A: the roomies last year Q: How long have you been at your current job? A: dont have one right now Q: What's the last thing you said out loud? A: i'm not sure, but i heard michael jackson hahahaha Q: Look to your left. What's there? A: window...shelves with books, makeup, jewelry, artsupplies, other girly crap like lotion and shit, cds, and pic frames, candles and lots of other shit Q: What is the last place you spent over $100? A: christmas presents for family and friends Q: Who's your favorite villain? A: dont have a favorite...i like the good guys lol Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? A: i steal sweatshirts from everyone Q: What web site(s) do you visit the most during the day? A: myspace, livejournal, yahoo Q: If you could drink anything right now what would it be? A: nothing. i already got my black cherry vanilla diet coke...omfg so goooooooood Q: Does anything hurt on ur body right now? A: my spine as always. and my wrist as always Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in? A: philly Q: Do you own a picture phone? A: yea cuz it was free Q: What's your favorite Starbucks drink? A: any of the frappachinos Q: Any ideas for your new-years resolution? A: too late for that Q: Admit something about yourself. A: i really hafta pee right now c r y i n g section when was the last time you really cried your heart out? this week about my mom ever cried yourself to sleep? yeah ever cried on your friend's shoulder? countless times. im a crier ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes do you cry when you get an injury? not minor things. but ive had some really really really bad pyschical pain before so yeah do songs make you cry?: not really h a p p y section are you normally a happy person?: yes what can make you happy? friends, family, art, the little things in life do you wish you were happier: no. im good what makes you the happiest?: friends family is being happy overrated?: no l o v e section how many times have you had your heart broken?: twice do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: im working on moving on have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? family and best friends only...no guy...that lame did you ever love a guy/girl, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' back? no has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yes h a t e section who do you actually hate: a few and i have good reason have you ever been on a hit list?: yes...everyone was on it cuz this kid was crazyyyyyyy are you a mean bully?: nope do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: i try not to but it can turn to hate s e l f - e s t e e m section is your self-esteem extremely low?: no. i have no reason for it to be do you believe in yourself?: most of the time who was the last person to say you were pretty/hot/etc: one of my friends i think. they rock and tell me im pretty alot hehe ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you werent good enough?: Are you happy with who you are?: yup do you wish you can be someone else?: no...but i think it would be awesome to be marilyn monroe for a day. ============================================ L//O/O/K/ /A/T/ /M/E/ x Whats your natural hair color?: brown x What is your current hair color? brown...i dont dye it cuz its so pretty x What color are your eyes?: hazel x Current Piercings?: ears only x Long or Short Hair?: medium but getting close to longish x Straight or Curly? curly...i love it that way. straight once in awhile but it takes too long /C/U/R/R/E/N/T/L/Y/ W/E/A/R/I/N/G x What shirt are you wearing? bsb concert tee cuz im just chillin at home x shorts/pants/ are you wearing?: scrub pants x Rings?: dont wear any. but we are making rings in jewelry class so i guess once thats done ill wear it x Braclets?: none on right now. hairband around my wrist is all lol x Is your hair up or down?: down for now /T/H/I/S/ O/R/ /T/H/A/T/ Rock or Rap: rock Coffee or Hot Cocoa: both are good Baseball or Softball: both Wild Night out or Romantic Night in: depends. i like both Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate to eat. but vanilla if its a candle or perfume. vanilla perfume is my life hahaha Bracelet or Necklace: both Pink or Purple: both History or Science: neither lol. Sleep in or Early to rise: in between Beach or Boardwalk: both are awesome Hoodie or Tee Shirt: hoodies rock my world Night Or Day: Night High School or College: College. high school was annoying and pointless White or Black: black love or fun: both. both are neeeded. actually fun is more important to me at this point in my life California or Florida: flordia. never been to cali but i wanna sometime Simple Plan or Good Charlotte: gc. hahaha. they are lame but whatever. saw them twice with meg. oh man, it was awesome when me meg and michelle rocked out to them a few weeks ago lmao Love at first sight or Learn to Love: love at first sight is shallow Babe or Baby: either /H/A/V/E/ Y/O/U/ E/V/E/R/ Kissed the opposite sex?: yes Kissed the same Sex?: lol Hugged someone?: yea Been on the phone until the sun came up?: so so so many times Put a song on repeat for more than 2 hours?: no id say hour at most. siberia...bianca knows hahaha Gone Skinny dipping?: omg yes. summer after 10th grade. me and michelle camping hahaha Laughed so hard you pissed in your pants? omg yes a few times lmfao /T/H/E/ L/A/S/T/ person you talked to in person?: beth...i mean we do live together lol Person you talked to online?: meggies right now person you talked to on the phone?: my mom for like 2 secs last time you had a shower?: wednesday night lol. after getting back from class at 10 pm last night i wasnt about to shower and i cant wake my ass up in enough time to shower in the morning lol so i smell oh well /R/A/N/D/O/M/ Do you like surveys?: sometimes. like now is good. im just chillin in my apartment watching tv and shit Do you ever wonder what your life will be like 10 years down the road?: sometimes but i dont think about it much cuz whatever happens happens you get along with your parents?: yea for the most part Are you old enough to vote?: yeah and it didnt end in my favor last election :( ugh Are you happy?: most of the time Are you sad?: sometimes. but not for too long You have mental breakdowns?: yes. end of semesters and shit ughhh i freak the fuck out Did you ever tell you parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school?: omg yeah. all thru highschool especially senior year hahaha Do you have a cell phone: yes ============================================ -Current Mood: worried -Current Music: watching tv...ellen show -Current Hair: curly -Current Annoyance: not knowing if my mom will be ok -Current Longing: not sure. a brownie or icecream maybe -Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing: homework, sleep, shower....oh well! -Current desktop picture?: hahahahahaahha spinner from degrassi<333333 -Current Favorite Music: mxpx, nfg, marilyn monroe<333 -Current Favorite Book: not sure what my fav is but currently im reading robinson crusoe -Current CD In Stereo: mxpx -Current Refreshment: lemon water -Current Worry: my mom Current Mood: chill (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
10:27 pm	move on, move on, wake up and ill be gone THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. Marybeth 2. Embee or MB 3. LOLA!!! THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. ninepurplestars 2. ssscottie529 3. nothinggold THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. i havent fallen asleep yet 2. i did so kickass in jewelry today 3. im amazing THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. that i keep worrying about something i have no control over 2. im always tired 3. lack of motivation at times THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. english 2. irish 3. too many damn things THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. not finding the one 2. never getting married 3. not having children THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. sleep 2. food 3. art THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. grinch pj pants 2. bsb concert tshirt 3. nothing else THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or musicians): 1. mxpx 2. nfg 3. marilyn monroe THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: 1. MELT WITH YOU-modern english 2. move on-denver harbor 3. growing up-blink182 THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS: 1. try another relationship...maybe... 2. try to get all my school work done ontime for once 3. try to sleep more THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 1. besides love...a best friend 2. trust 2. happiness TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no order) 1. im so tired right now 2. i have 8 hours of class tomorrow 3. i am such a liar THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. hair...it cant be way short ugh 2. eyes 3. face THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: 1. stay motivated 2. fall asleep without pills 3. believe in love THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. jewelry 2. sleeping/ being lazy 3. painting THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. sleep for 12 hours 2. have the week be over 3. eat cookies THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. jewelry 2. jewelry 3. jewelry THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. bermuda...im going there this summer <3 2. camping at hammonassete with the girls...also this summer <333 3. anywhere but ct hahaha THREE KIDS NAMES: 1. michael 2. marilyn 3. shane THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. become a successful jeweler 2. meet spinner from degrassi hahahaaha 3. find jose with sara!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: lame (Comment on this)
4:14 pm	i was on my way to be with you today<3 im so torn. im happy to be back in philly but im also not. home was so good. too good. and notihng is really here for me in pilly. but i do like being off on my own. so i dunno. feb meg is gunna visit me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D she is my life so im pretty excited! i want so badly to go up to uconn for may weekend. i know thats so far away tho. and it sucks cuz its right near the end of school where everything gets crazy. but i wanna go to uconn so bad. see anj, christine...and whoever else...molly and nikki are thinking of going...that would be awesome!!! :) but im tired from class today and im rambling. peace out. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: home improvement on tv (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 7th, 2006
1:30 am	when in montana, do like jose and make me a taco bitch! I WANT: it to be monday already so me anca, sara, and whoever else go to eca to visit jerry, kelly, and anna and have yummy food at clarks and yummy huge pickles from (gourmet) heaven, i miss new haven! I HAVE: to pee but im too lazy I WISH: i was sleeping I HATE: that my back and wrist hurt so bad I MISS: new haven, painting, jerry, friends i havent seen in forever, being a child with no responsibilies I FEAR: time moving way too fast and drifting further apart from friends I HEAR: what not to wear on tv I SEARCH: for better stuff to do in ct I WONDER: if everything will work out this week like seeing chris nikki and molly on tues I REGRET: not seeing more ppl this break but its been awesome seeing meg and michelle all the time I ALWAYS: miss someone five minutes after they leave... I AM NOT: looking foward to cleaning my room tomorrow I DANCE: when im excited or drunk with my girls I SING: wayyyyyyy too loud to hollabackgirl and golddigger I CRY: everytime i watch stepmom hahaha I AM NOT ALWAYS: nice I WRITE: alot lately cuz i have lots on my mind I WON: an award for being amazing...ok no...but i should I LOST: a part of me to you but im slowly getting it back I CONFUSE: ppl alot cuz i dont think b4 i speak I NEED: to move on from this I SHOULD: be sleeping cuz i sleep no more these days IT UPSETS ME: when i lose control YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS: keep me sane, alive, and happy WHAT IS YOUR MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON IM: shady fuck THE LAST IMAGE/THOUGHT YOU GO TO SLEEP WITH: thinking about what i have to do the next day YOUR BEST FEATURE: ehhh BEEN IN LOVE: yea WANT TO GET MARRIED: i think HAVE ANY TATTOOS/WHERE?: no SCREEN NAMES: ninepurplestars NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown CURRENT HAIR COLOR: my natural cuz its pretty EYE COLOR: hazel Current Mood: awake Current Music: what not to wear is on (Comment on this)
1:23 am	happiness times 10 : ) things are good but im starting not to sleep again. break has been wonderful and exactly what ive needed. ive seen meg and michelle alot and its been amazing :) i wish i could have seen bianca lots lots more but its hard to. i wish i could see her ALWAYS! :) living at home this month has been pretty damn good. barely fought with my parents but then again om always out. its good that way. family holidays have been amazing. both sides of my family are awesome and i definately enjoy them much better now that im older. <3 tired. i hope he calls soon :) getting crunk at michelles shall me awesome tomorrow :) Current Mood: cold Current Music: mxpx...responsibility (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
6:38 pm	when things were looking up, they came crashing the fuck down. im really not sure what to think anymore. finding out hes never gunna be mine ever again kills me. i mean i moved on but part of me thought that when we were older and more mature, things could work for us. he used to feel this way too. but hes completely moved on and all ready to spend the rest of his life with her. part of me died when i found out. but part of me is relieved. its time to start living and stop waiting. i havent been happy in way too long. only happy moments that only last for so long. i havent had a day that i was sincerley happy for the whole, entire day (except thanksgiving...). thats not right. i need to make things right for me. i need to pick up the pieces... Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: golden girls on tv (Comment on this)
6:37 pm	corn bread is the shit! First Entry in each month in the year 2005. January: YEAH 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! February: my niggas don’t dance we just pull up our pants and do the ROCKAWAY!!! March: I wear my sunglasses at night… April: saying goodbye was too hard but ur gone 4ever now :( May: untitled June: this shit is bananas…B-A-N-A-N-A-S!!! July: untitled August: untitled September: lalalala boredddDDD October: omg theyre back AGAIN!!!!!! hahaha November: TODAY WAS TERRIBLE…. December: untitled (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 8th, 2005
11:20 pm	i've finally realized that some things in life will never change. no matter how much time and energy, your effort cannot overcome some things. its sad. some bad things will always remain. i realize everyone has struggles in their lives and i can accept that i will struggle like everyone does. but what i cant accept is this certain struggle. its been going on for seven long years. and its wearing me down and tearing at my insides. i cant do this. i cant handle this any longer. this certain thing has gotten worse lately. and it effects everything i do. i have so much work to do, all due next week...everyone does. its too stressful of a time and add this to it...im breaking. i cant take it. i need to do something about it. i need to talk about it, but it is something really hard to deal with. i hate dragging others into this, but i need someone. i need someone now. i cant beat this alone. i need someone to hold my hand through this. (Comment on this)
8:31 pm	Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Monday I gave xoderekjeter2 a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). In May I ruled Iran as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). In June I set unkown_soldier's puppy on fire (-66 points). Last Thursday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). In January I turned failurexdesignx in for spitting (3 points). Overall, I've been nice (660 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony! Sincerely, nothingggold Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username: (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
11:07 pm	i miss you most in decembers he asked me if i had been listening lately. to the mix he made. but it was too long ago. it hurts too bad. such happy memories. memories that bound themselves to these songs. he said they weren't random. everything had to mean something. every aspect of his life needed this. a sort of crazy control. but nonetheless he ruined it. i can't listen to "quit your life" by mxpx without crying or wanting to throw myself out the window. (Comment on this)
8:22 pm	sigh i'm sad again. but that's nothing new :( Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
5:55 pm	yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............. so today has been such a waste. like really. i stayed in bed till noon and i havent done that in forever...i havent done that since i was too fucked up to move hahaha. i need a repeat of that cuz things are pretty sucky lately... i started my tea cups for the crafts banquet today. i only have 4 almost done ones. im such a waste... when the fuck am i gunna do something worthwhile with my life?!?! its only 6 right now. i just want to sleep cuz things blow. why cant i be happy? i need a life. shoot me! Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: rugrats on tv yo (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
8:49 pm	la la la la lal al la lalalalal alalal laa. life is lame! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. could things possibly get any worse? if christine doesnt come this weekend, i swear ill die.... i never felt so bad in my entire life but this time i did it to myself what do you expect from me? i did it, so what do you expect from me? Current Mood: depressed Current Music: gilmore girls on tv (Comment on this)